I’ve had a lot of free time since the start of the quarantine, and I’ve done a bunch of random tasks to keep busy. I have not been posting to the blog as much and I finally decided to stop neglecting my blog and start writing more blog posts. Those will be coming soon for your reading pleasure. Anyway, for this specific blog post, I decided to listen to a song and describe how the song relates to me. Music is amazing! We all listen to music for various reasons. Most people will even agree that they can relate to some of the songs they listen to. The song I chose to listen to on repeat and write about is, “Doin’ Time by Sublime. I absolutely love this song and I even like the cover Lana Del Rey did. If you’ve never heard the song, here it is: (Just a fair warning, this song is the explicit version so don’t play it around children.) Did you listen? Well, I hope you did because I am not going to explain the song except for the verses I feel relate to me. Here are the first few verses that I relate to: “Me and my girl, we got this relationship I love her so bad, but she treats me like shit On lockdown, like a penitentiary She spreads her lovin' all over And when she gets home, there's none left for me” Okay, the relationship I am talking about is not the one with my co-conspirator, Anthony so please get that out of your head. I am talking about the relationship I have with myself. It’s not a secret that I have a lot of negative feelings toward myself. I am working on that. If you are a long time reader of the blog you know my constant struggle with my mental health. Well, like anybody else, I have toxic traits that I am not proud of and sometimes I feel my toxicity embodies who I am as a person. Sometimes toxic Drea has a lot more power than I am willing to admit. She has gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past. I am working on loving myself as a whole, but my toxic traits make it difficult. I continue to do stupid things I am not proud of and sometimes my choices or actions cause me to self-isolate because that is one way I cope comfortably. Now, on the other side of the spectrum, I am kind, I do everything I can to help and support others, but I don’t take care of myself in the end. Then I fall into the vicious trap of people-pleasing. It feels like a never-ending cycle. The next verses that speak to me are:
“Evil, I've come to tell you that she's evil, most definitely Evil, ornery, scandalous and evil, most definitely The tension, it's getting hotter I'd like to hold her head underwater” As mentioned I’m working on loving myself and putting myself first, however, breaking this cycle of negative feelings toward myself that I’ve had for many years isn’t something that can be done overnight. I’ll be blunt, these verses hit the nail on the head of how I would describe my toxic self. The last two verses describe the struggle I have burning inside, and sometimes I wish I could hold toxic Drea’s head underwater so she would be gone for good. Unfortunately, we are two sides of the same coin and in order to get rid of my toxic side, I need to continue to work on myself, not just kill her off. We are all toxic in some way or another but we have a few choices, we could either let our toxicity control our lives or take control and try to change. What do you think? Do you feel you relate to certain songs? Which ones? Let me know in the comments! ***I do not own the rights to this song. All rights belong to Sublime. I was simply using the song and its lyrics to talk about my personal opinions.***
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