I’m sure everybody knows how it feels to be constantly on the go. We have so much to do that it starts to feel like there never enough time to finish everything. It can get extremely stressful and frustrating. I know work and home life alone, can get extremely overwhelming. Imagine, running a blog (and its social media accounts), contributing for another NM-based blog, doing volunteer work, being an advocate, going to therapy, and everything else I do gives me so much anxiety. I feel the only way to prevent myself from getting so anxious is to finish everything. I was so WRONG! I recently decided to take a break from my hectic, boss lady life and take a few moments out of my day to focus on the “now.” I’ve talked about being more mindful in the past, but now, I’ve actually started to incorporate mindfulness into my daily life. Going to my weekly therapy sessions and reading Miracles Now gave me the realization that humans are so busy that we don’t take a few minutes out of the day to just focus on the present. Danielle and I discussed when I could be mindful throughout the day. She mentioned being mindful when driving or even when I am just walking around. To be completely honest, I had never thought about being mindful doing simple tasks like walking or driving. So, I took it to another level and decided to be mindful when I am eating. I’m sure foodies all over are very mindful especially when it comes to eating, but for those who aren’t, have you ever paid attention to what your food really tastes like? I like to consider myself a foodie, but I had never taken the time out of my day to REALLY taste my food. On my day off, I decided to make breakfast and mindfully eat my meal. I did a simple breakfast. I made, over medium eggs, bacon, and potatoes. I sat down and actually chewed my food instead of inhaling it like I would normally do. I had never realized how different food tastes when you slow down and enjoy it. I tasted the natural flavors of my eggs (I don’t cook with salt very often). I enjoyed the saltiness of my bacon. The salt from my bacon balanced out the blandish flavor of my egg and potatoes. Apart from eating, I enjoyed the smells that flooded my kitchen as well. It was nice to take a few minutes out of the day to be mindful of the present. Like I mentioned, we are always on the go, in a rush, we honestly don’t make time to do small things such as enjoy a meal. This was a great experience for me. For all you foodies and non-foodies out there I would try this out and see what you experience when you actually taste your food.
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Anthony, that name alone makes so many feelings rush through my mind. Some are bad, but most are good. It’s been two years since I first met you. I remember the first time I saw you, I was on my way home from UNM and you were the bus driver. I saw you almost every day at 3:40pm. It was the highlight of my day most of the time. If I had a hard day at school I looked forward to seeing the “cute bus driver” on my way home. I slowly developed a crush on you and desperately wanted to talk to you. However, my morals got in the way because I was in a relationship at the time, I also thought that you were married. I thought to myself, “there’s no way someone that attractive can be single.” So, with that in mind, I stopped paying attention to my feelings that were building for you. It wasn’t until I fell out of love with my now ex fiancé that I started paying attention to those feelings again. Facebook was also super creepy, and you popped up on my “People you may know.” I finally learned your name. I always knew you as A. Garcia because that was the name on your uniform. Until I learned your name, I felt like I was crushing on a mystery man with no name. Upon learning your name, I saw you the next day on my way home and got the courage to ask you if your name was Anthony. I then mentioned that you popped up on my Facebook, and you told me to send you a request. In that moment, I felt butterflies in my stomach, and I couldn’t stop smiling.
When we started talking to each other via Facebook I was incredibly happy. The only thing that ruined my mood was my ex fiancé not accepting that I didn’t want to be with him anymore. I attempted to break up with him on several occasions, but he would manipulate me into staying with him. I was no longer in love with him, but he didn’t seem to understand. I knew I wanted to be with you, but due to a lot of unfortunate circumstances I couldn’t. I remember the first time we ever hung out, we went to Century Rio 24 to watch “How to be Single.” We then went to Wendy’s after because I was hungry. I remember thinking to myself, “is this real? How can I possibly be on a kind of date with the ‘cute bus driver?’” The butterflies were back, and I couldn’t stop smiling again like before. Things were going well with you and I. We talked every day, and we both started to develop feelings for each other. Hearing from you was the highlight of my day. All our cheesy conversations that would make me laugh. Our sweet but completely obvious flirting are my favorite memories. I remember saving some of our conversations on my phone just, so I could look at them any time I needed a smile. I wanted more, but I still had a huge piece of baggage that I needed to take care of. I went to your house for the first time shortly after something horrible had happened to me. I needed an escape from my own house because he was there. You and I watched Austin Powers, and for just a few hours I felt like everything was good, and that nothing had happened to me. I wanted more of that, so I tried to spend as much time I could with you as humanly possible. I remember our first kiss. Call me dramatic, but that was one of the most magical moments of my life. I remember feeling anxiety because I wanted to kiss you, but I feared that I wouldn’t know what I was doing and make things weird. But thankfully, it wasn’t like that. I felt sparks and my stomach was full of butterflies. I was incredibly happy I still couldn’t believe I had kissed the “cute bus driver” it felt like a dream. Everything was perfect in my eyes. Then after some time we had our first fight. I remember feeling intense anxiety. My anxiety was so bad I felt sick to my stomach. I thought I had ruined my chances with you, so I began to feel extreme sadness. Luckily, we resolved the fight the same night and decided to finally start dating, just dating not an official relationship yet, but shortly after we made that decision, we became a couple. Things moved quickly once we made our relationship official. We went on a trip together, I was there for your knee surgery, and I knew I loved you by December of 2016 but didn’t want to admit it to myself, much less you. The first time I told you I loved you was a month later over text when you were drunk, and I knew you wouldn’t remember. The following day, you came over and I desperately wanted to tell you in person, but the words wouldn’t come out. When you decided to leave my house, I stopped you and once again tried to tell you. I sat in your car with you and you waited for me to tell you, but then you said it for me. I felt so embarrassed because the words couldn’t come out, but I felt relieved you knew how I felt, and I was lucky because you said it back. I moved in with you after 9 months of dating. I remember feeling excited but uncomfortable. It was a huge step and I wasn’t sure if I had made the right decision. The first few months of living together went well, unfortunately, we learned each other’s flaws that we didn’t like. Like they say, you don’t really know someone until you live with them, and that was the truth. There were things that you did I didn’t like and vice versa, but we made slight changes for each other. I felt uncomfortable addressing the house as “ours” because to me, it wasn’t. To this day, I still feel a little uncomfortable saying it, but I’ve slowly made myself at home by adding pictures and a few homey touches to the house. We may have our ups and downs, but I love you so much. I honestly don’t know where I would be if you hadn’t come into my life. I’m grateful for all our good times and even our bad. We may not be the perfect couple, but what couple is? We may fight and get upset with each other, but our love is strong enough to withstand so much. Like someone very important told me, “when you finally meet someone who tries their hardest to be with you no matter how difficult you are, stay with them. Stay with them because finding someone who is willing to be with you at all cost doesn’t happen every day.” I don’t intend on going anywhere. I hope you don’t either. I look forward to the future, and to have more fun adventures with you. Hello world! My name is Andrea Delgado, also known as Artemis on my Instagram and Twitter. I currently work as a Job Coach. I am also a licensed Zumba instructor. I got my licensed to teach Zumba in 2013. From my first Zumba class, I knew I wanted to teach because I got to do my two favorite things, dance and make money, at the same time! I did some research and found a class to get licensed to teach. I taught for about a year at Carlos Rey Elementary School, but then didn’t have time to teach anymore. I honestly do miss teaching Zumba, but it’s difficult to teach since I don’t have a club to teach at. Maybe one day if I have a place to teach I will start teaching again. I graduated with my bachelor’s degree in Psychology from the University of New Mexico in 2017. I intend to get my masters in substance abuse counseling before I turn 30. When I grow up, I want to be a substance abuse counselor. What led me to this career choice was one, taking abnormal psych in college, and two, I have suffered addiction; so, knowing firsthand what people go through during detox I feel it will be beneficial because I can empathize with my patients.
One day I will work in my dream job, but as for now I enjoy working as a Job Coach. I own one dog, but I am mom to three dogs. My baby’s name is Harley. This dog literally saved my life. The year I adopted Harley was the year I was extremely suicidal. I came close to committing suicide and I had already been evaluated by a therapist, but I was on a waiting list to see a therapist, so my mom got me a puppy, so I would have a distraction from my thoughts. My mom was right, he was truly a distraction. If it wasn’t for that dog, and my mom getting him for me I probably wouldn’t be here today. So, thank you mom, and Harley! Some of you may know, but some of you may not, but I was engaged to be married. I was engaged to my high school sweetheart, now turned least favorite person on the planet. He and I were together for 4 ½ years, for the first 3 years everything was perfect, and I was so in love with him. But the last year I was with him I began to lose interest. He was in the Navy, so we had a long-distance relationship. Looking back, the only reason my relationship was perfect was because he was never here. That is the honest truth. I saw him maybe once a year then he was gone the rest of the time. When I actually got to see him, I was so annoyed with him I wanted him to leave. My issue was I didn’t know how to tell him I no longer wanted to be with him because every time I would try he would manipulate me into staying with him. In 2016 he raped me. Unfortunately, that was the push I needed to finally leave. Like they say, hindsight is 2020 but even though now I have PTSD I feel I learned a lot about what I want because of him. So, thank you ass hole, you taught me a valuable lesson! In August of 2016, I started dating my current boyfriend, Anthony. We may have our ups and downs, but he treats me better than my ex did. Anthony and I started our relationship off slow. If it were up to Anthony he and I would have started dating a lot sooner, but I didn’t want to jump into anything especially after what had happened to me. Once we started dating things moved progressively fast. I moved in after 6 months of dating. Our first year dating wasn’t easy, in fact, it was one of the hardest things ever. Anthony and I have a 10-year age difference and we’re both stubborn, so we would fight a lot! Don’t get me wrong, we still fight, what couple doesn’t? But now we at least work it out. Our relationship definitely has room for growth. I love Anthony and I want to have a future with him. I guess I will see what god has planned for us. I am a huge nerd! I love superheroes, conspiracy theories, gaming, reading comic books, anime and so many other things. I mentioned my favorite YouTubers in my last post, so you know what I like to watch on YouTube. While writing this post, I watched Markiplier’s FNAF Ultimate Custom Night’s livestream. (I have no friends! Just kidding, I don’t have a lot of friends.) I am a die-hard Dallas Cowboys Fan! (Haters gonna hate). I love going to sporting events in my hometown of Albuquerque. I don’t have a lot of hobbies, but I do enjoy cooking, reading, playing video games, watching YouTube videos, dancing, singing (even though I can’t sing), but most of all, I love writing and doing research for my blog posts. I love doing things for my community as well. I love to donate blood. Currently, I can’t donate because I am anemic. I love to do volunteer work. With my job it’s hard to volunteer on my own because there is not enough time, but luckily my work does a lot of volunteer work, so I take advantage of it. Being a rape survivor, I like to do what I can to help other survivors. I consider myself an advocate for mental health awareness, and sexual assault survivors. I write a lot about my mental health journey and I hope that the things I learn in therapy can not only help me but help those who are afraid of asking for help. I am also not secretive about what happened to me two years ago, I’ve opened up a lot because I want others to know that they are not alone. I know I felt alone after it happened to me, so I want to support others in their time of need. I could go on and on about myself, but I think this is plenty for you to get to know me a little better if you don’t already. XOXO Drea |
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