On Wednesday June 13, 2018 we put down our beautiful Pitbull Blu. Blu was diagnosed with skin cancer. She had a massive tumor on her lower belly. Anthony, Kris, and I had to make an extremely difficult decision. In the end, it all came down to Anthony's final decision. We all knew that treatment would be outrageous and removing the tumor would be difficult because of the size of it. We all knew the most logical decision was to put her down. Anthony had Blu for 8 years and losing her was very hard for him. Blu had been there for Anthony through all the rough periods of his life, and seeing my boyfriend so distraught killed me inside. I knew I wanted to do something for him so he could potentially feel better. I decided to print out a picture of her when she was healthy, and make a dog tag for her kind of as a memorial. The Sunday before that Wednesday he broke down and I couldn't hide my surprise from him any longer. I gave him the picture, and told him I was getting a dog tag for her too. The gift seemed to alleviate pain. I felt a sense of relief knowing he was happy even for a few minutes. Losing a pet is like losing a family member, and I could see that every time Anthony would break down. I was so focused on making Anthony feel better I hid my feelings. We decided to take Blu to the river the day before. She normally loves the river and would go crazy in the water, but the cancer had spread to her feet and she was uncomfortable moving in any way. She did eventually get in the water and played around for a few minutes but then got out. I took a lot of pictures of Blu that day. I wanted to remember her on her second to last day with us. I took this picture of her and Anthony because it was a beautiful moment to capture. The next day was on of the hardest for not only Anthony, but Kris and I as well. Blu was more than a dog to all of us. Even my mom had a hard time saying goodbye to Blu. My mom was never a fan of Pitbulls, but my mom connected with Blu instantly. Blu may have not been my dog, but I feel in the almost 3 years I knew and loved her she was my dog too. I kept my composure around Anthony because I wanted him to feel safe to cry without my adding to his pain, but the day after I was a wreck. I had flashbacks of the experience. One thing I appreciated was before injecting her they let her have Peanut Butter, Chocolate, and Cheese. She was so happy. We took Blu's body and buried her. We decided to make Blu's grave pretty so we planted some Petunias over her grave. Losing Blu has to be one of the hardest things that has ever happened to us. But I'm just glad she is no longer in pain. She was a great dog, and she will be greatly missed. We love you Blu you will never be forgotten!
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