"My name is Andrea. I am like a lot of people. I am a college graduate struggling to get a "real" job. I have a deadbeat retail job that I don't like all that much. I struggle with eating healthy and maintaining a healthy weight. I love to exercise and go on adventures. I've suffered depression, heartbreak, addiction, and even suicidal ideation. Death has taken some of my dear family and friends. I have debt, and am no where near paying it off. I almost married my high school sweetheart. My current relationship isn't perfect. I don't have many real friends. I am not really a people person, but I love to help those in need. I am not a perfect daughter. I make a lot of mistakes, and sometimes my mistakes hurt the people I love. I don't express my feelings, I like to keep things bottled up. I get jealous easily. I feel lonely at times. I cry, A LOT. I get angry easily. I find it hard being myself around people. I love my dogs, Harley and Hayley. I even love my adopted dogs, Blu, Kaleo, and even Brownie. Happiness isn't always easy to come by for me. I don't know my true strength. Music and writing are my escape from reality. I am a people pleaser. I don't really do anything for myself, I usually do it for the approval of others. I have a big heart. I care for others even if they don't care for me. I am not perfect, nor do I have a perfect life. I am learning to love every aspect of my life, whether it be good or bad. True happiness and self acceptance is a process. I am willing to do whatever it takes to be happy again. I know the journey will not be easy, but I know I can overcome this journey." I wrote this about a month ago when I couldn't sleep. I wrote it because it helped me ease my mind enough to fall asleep. I recently started seeing a counselor because I have finally realized that I am not ok, and I need help with my mental health. I suffer horrible anxiety, and was recently diagnosed with PTSD. When I was diagnosed this it made a lot of sense. I knew before my diagnosis that I wasn't ok, and I knew I wanted to do anything I could to be happy again. I figured maybe if I got professional help it would be the best for me. When I was depressed in high school counseling was very beneficial to me because I had someone unbiased to talk to. I don't always feel I can talk to my loved ones, especially about things that bother me. I feel working with my counselor will help me learn to talk to my loved ones in a healthy respectful way. Counseling isn't for everyone, but I feel it is an important step for me to take in my journey to happiness.
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